Yesterday I turned thirty-five...or as one of my best girlfriend's says....yesterday was the 6th anniversary of my 29th birthday.
However you want to slice it, I'm feeling a bit conflicted about this one. I really don't feel any older than two days ago, and most of the time I feel about the same as I did when I was about 18... well in my mind anyway.
But for some reason, 35 sounds like the opposite of young ( I will not say old ). It also isn't too far from 40 and for reasons I can not articulate, 40 is a number that I have always dreaded. Not that 40 is bad, I'm sure it really is the new 20, but in the crazy recesses of my mind, I have just always imagined if you could equate a smell with 40 it would be something like stale cheese. You know, you can still cut off the moldy, crusty edges but it is Definitely past it's prime, and by prime I mean that firm, well rested 26 year old we all were, once upon a time...
Anyway reaching this milestone has made me realize that the ominous 40 is indeed creeping, slowly but surely closer and closer. I know I need to snap out of it, really, I am a 35 year old mother of 4, words like firm and well rested simply don't apply to girls like me. But there's the rub, because I still feel like a girl, certainly not a grown up, although I'm pretty sure most people would say I probably qualified about a decade ago.
Somehow, I forgot to notice.
Well, 35, Bring It!
I welcome you and all that you signify. I'm reasonably sure when I am 75, I will look back on 35 and feel like it was actually the uphill slope rather than the down hill slope of my life.
And if life is indeed measured in seasons, I'd say that 35 feels like mid-summer, Bright and fragrantly full of life! Yes, that's exactly like what this life of mine feels like right now!